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POST PANDEMONIUM : RENAISSANCE

May 18, 2009

       Experience taught me to be firm, to stand for my decisions and to take the risk for their consequences.

       They say I’m weird but I tell them I’m not. I know myself better than they do. I believe I’m just unique. I’m just a typical teen-ager. Like them, I’m also an identity builder. I also seek adventures to explore my ability and my limitation as others do. We may just have different approach on seeking those adventures.

       It was May 19, 2008, the day I’ve turned 18 when I decided to cut my dependence to my family. That was my only birthday that I was not with them. That was my first time to cry on my birthday. From there on, I started my adventure alone.

       There is no such safe adventure. If you want to learn from it, you have to take the risk. If you have the will to survive, you have to be firm.

       Amidst the adventure, I was striken by myriad storms. I was trapped with the contradictions within me. Initially, I have to compensate, to double my effort to surmount the catastrophe. I have sacrificed almost everything.

       The storms torn my clothes. I was hit by the wind which left my heart cold. I was torn. I did fail.

       I was asphyxiated with the contradictions. I was confused.

       I was hurt. I regressed. I forgot how to trust.

       I was weakened but my firmness to stand for my decisions and to take the risk for their consequences strengthened me to continue.

       Slowly, I recovered. And now that I’m turning 19, I have to make another decision, to treat life not just an adventure but also a responsibility.

       I will be coming to an age of rendezvous. The age when I have to make or break it for the future.

       Another year, a new opportunity to grow.

       There is nothing in the past that I would regret. Because those things built the foundation of my personality. A foundation which I will use in reaching my ideals not just for myself but also for the reasons behind my existence.

        I will forever treasure my experiences for it has taught me that life loves those who have the will to live it.

       Happy birthday to myself ^_^!

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