Ito ang talagang laugh trip!

September 24, 2009

         

       muntik na kong mautas sa kakatawa. ngayon lang uli ako nakatawa ng ganito kalakas at kaligaya mula nung other, other, other, other week. Ilang weeks na nga ba akong nawawala? di ko na alam. haaaay.

       Ang puso, ang puso at ang puso. Hindi bumibigay ang puso kundi natatalo lamang tayo. Natatalo tayo sa sariling mga pagkakamali at ang kabilang panig na paghahanap. Ang talo ay ang taong tinignan na talo siya dahil tingin niya ay talo siya. Ang pagkatalo ay nagmula sa pride na ‘dapat’.

      Maraming ‘dapat sana’ pero ito ay laging kokontrahin ng ‘pero’.

     Ang pagkabuo ulit ng puso ay nasa sariling pagpapasya. 

7 am SYNDROME

AUTOMATICITY…

            Starts when I’m seated

            Prolongs as time goes by

            Uncontrollable heightening speed

            Of lucid sound dwelling within

            It’s bursting yet cloaked

            Inside deceiving firmness

            Of pretensive bravery

                                                -Tachycardia.

 

 

REFRACTORINESS…

 

            Irresistable deepening and fastening

            Creating those strange movements

            Of rising and setting

            Abnormalities producing uneasiness

            Slowly pulls me down

            I’m buried within

            Drowned in oxygen, save me!

                                                -Respiratory Alkalosis.

 

 

DEVIANCE…

            Stimulated neurons freak

            Run amuck

            Yet with impenetrable density

            They’re trapped and bounded

            Roars and bleeds

            The pressure, it’s rising

            Help me, I’m falling!

                                                -Increased Intracranial Pressure

 

 

DECOMPENSATION…

            I’m bursting

                   Drowning

                        Falling

                             Paralyzed

                                    Lost

                                         Shut

                                                And now lifeless

                                                            - Brain death.

What my name means

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There are 23 letters in your name.
Those 23 letters total to 94
There are 12 vowels and 11 consonants in your name.

Your number is: 4

The characteristics of #4 are: A foundation, order, service, struggle against limits, steady growth.

The expression or destiny for #4:
Order, service, and management are the cornerstones of the number 4 Expression. Your destiny is to express wonderful organization skills with your ever practical, down-to-earth approach. You are the kind of person who is always willing to work those long, hard hours to push a project through to completion. A patience with detail allows you to become expert in fields such as building, engineering, and all forms of craftsmanship. Your abilities to write and teach may lean toward the more technical and detailed. In the arts, music will likely be your choice. Artistic talents may also appear in such fields as horiculture and floral arrangement, as well. Many skilled physicians and especially surgeons have the 4 Expression.

The positive attitudes of the 4 Expression yield responsibility; you are one who no doubt, fulfills obligations, and is highly systematic and orderly. You are serious and sincere, honest and faithful. It is your role to help and you are required to do a good job at everything you undertake.
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How to deal with frustration

             I still have so many pages of the book to read for my class tomorrow. But when I try to think the results of the efforts I make, I get depressed. I am frustrated by the imbalance between my effort and accomplishments. My will power is affected. My motivation is inactivated. I again tend to be rebellious of my own self by doing things that I want to do rather than doing things I am supposed to be and must be doing.

             I shouldn’t be taking a break from the field of academics for lately, I am always outside of its boundaries. However, this time, I realized that it would be the last break which I would take for this semester. I should continue on pushing myself forward despite of the unexpected hurdles on my path. Anyway, nobody would save me from this quagmire of helplessness except my one and only self.

             After minutes of freedom from the cruelty of reality, I let my heart and mind wander to search my lost self buried down the deep hole of frustration.
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